Sunday, December 2, 2007

on holidays...

Not much has been going on around here. Really! D has been out of town for business a lot, which means a lot of things get put on hold.

Some other things have changed this year, too... I had to cancel both of my holiday parties which would traditionally take place next weekend. Why? Because we're going to Denver for the Testing. Ahhh, yet another event marred by infertility.

This time of year is also bittersweet for us. It was this time 2 years ago that I had my first miscarriage. Oh, the innocence! Way back then I thought a BFP actually meant I'd have a baby 8 months later. We had wrapped gifts for all of the grandparents-to-be and everything. Taking those gifts out from under the tree was one of the hardest things I've done in a long time.

Christmas is another one of those child-centric holidays (Easter, 4th of July, Halloween) that just leaves me at a loss. So many of the 'traditional' events are geared towards kids. By not having any in our family, we just don't have a lot to 'do' around the holiday. Yes, we go to Church, but no Christmas pagents, easter egg hunts, and you can just forget about the pictures w/ Santa or the easter bunny.

Everything can be summed up in our Christmas card this year. It is going to feature a picture of the dogs.
*sigh*
The Dogs...

6 comments:

Cindy said...

Hugs, sweetie. I hope you get to have some fun on your trip.

Diana said...

Hugs to you, hoping your dogs have to move over for next year's picture.

tryingin2007 said...

to me, dogs on christmas cards screams "infertility!" maybe I'm just being too sensitive. I no longer send photos of "the kids" (now just our 1 dog since chilli died.) we all long for that "baby and santa" photo to call our own.

hopefully someday we'll be exchanging those santa photos.

Kathleen said...

Hoping for different cards next year --- and a great trip to Co!

Amy said...

Here is something an FF buddy said in one of my IVF recycler buddy groups:

"Anyone starting to get those photo Christmas cards with people's newly born babies or their kids on it? I hate to be so grouchy but they put me in a bad mood. I know I will probably end up sending those out too when I have kids but right now, as I have never been a parent, they irritate me. I feel like sending out a photo card back to them with a picture of our new TV or something, saying 'Another barren year for us, happy holidays!' "

Anniep said...

*snicker*
Oh, how I'd love to put a pic of us w/ a new plasma on the card! ROTFL.
But wait... we don't have the money for a plasma because of the darn IF!