Friday, August 17, 2007

The follow-up

The follow-up appointment was wholly unproductive. I don't have any kind of resolution, reason it didn't work, excuses... nothing! After much hem and haw-ing the RE did say that if we were to do another cycle, that we wouldn't do an ET, instead freeze everything and do a transfer on a seperate cycle. There seems to be 2 issues that could be causing this: 1. implantation issues due to the medication of these IVF cycles, and/or 2. egg quality. Doing a FET on another cycle could circumvent any lining / implantation issues. On the latter, he said he'd talk to the embryologist about the egg q uality thing and get back to us on that. Uh, ok...

There is no clear cut reason to point to for why this last cycle didn't work. There could be many things. There could be 1 thing, there's no way to tell. Similarly frustrating is that there is also no clear path for what to do next. We've been asked a lot "what are you doing next?". When I answer "I have no idea", I'm really not being evasive, I simply don't know!

There are options. Thanks to the marvels of modern science. Egg donors and embryo donors would both involve me carrying a pregnancy to term. We don't know if my body can do that. (tho it's really good at making fat cells!) Adoption, both international and domestic, are also options. There are a lot more unknowns, as far as timing goes, with any of this. It's complicated. To throw another hitch in things, I would really like to have children that are (biologically) related to each other.
Clearly there are alot of things on the table. It will take Time to Work Things Out.

I still have no idea what is next.

Monday, August 13, 2007

1 weekend, 1200 miles

Phew! We're back from some much needed time away. It was actually really busy, but a change in scenery was nice. First stop was eastern Maryland for a business conference for D. Visited some friends, had some blender drinks, and learned that the state of Delaware doesn't even bother signing most of their streets and intersections. That slight little detail rendered our g**gle directions completely useless!!!
Then it was on to the greater DC area where we stayed with my good friend R from college. They generously hosted us for Sat and Sun.. It was nice seeing everyone and catching up!
We made fabulous time (7 hours), and even had time to mow the yard and do some laundry. Oh, and update the blog, of course!
Follow up appt. w/ the RE is on Wednesday. *sigh*

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

What kind of chocolate are you?

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.
You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.
Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

getting away

This weekend D and I are going away. Ok, it's for business. Ok, it's just to MD for a couple of days, and then to DC to visit friends (1 of whom is 20w pg w/ TWINS... ugh.). It will still be nice to have a change of scenery. The hotel has an infinity pool, and a bar which I'm assuming serves blender drinks. I can't think of another time I would actually like a blender drink, but now is as good of time as any. And I can! Now, I don't plan to get plastered (sorry folks), just a little sun and fun to take my mind off Things will be most welcome.

It will be nice. Very Nice Indeed.

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Beta is in

I got the call this morning. The blood test was negative. 0.

I'm not sure about the 'moving on' thing... it might take awhile. A long while.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

a BAD day

So, ya'll know I work PT... Thankfully today was a work day. I was hoping it could be a good distraction from the obvious.
That flew out the door at about 9 o'clock this morning when I was frantically running around the house trying to find my paperwork for my blood draw for my BETA. It was nowhere to be found... 9:15... 9:30, nothing. 9:45 still nothing. The cutoff for STAT orders at Labcorp is 10am, but I have to be at work at 10am and it's now 9:50 and I have no paperwork. Ok, fine. I call the RE and leave a frantic voicemail (which they of course don't get until 10:30...too late) and head to work.
It's a bad day already.
So, I get out of the car, carry my things into the store. Things= 1 24oz plastic cup of crystal lite w/ gladwrap on it to prevent spillage, purse, power bar for breakfast, and a box of tissues b/c my allergies have been acting up. Somehow I walk in the door and my cup goes FLYING, hits the floor, and proceeds to spew all over the floor, some boxes, everywhere.
I lost it.
Long story short, the paperwork did appear (at the other store, I have no idea how), the RE faxed new paperwork to me, and I went to get the blood drawn at lunch. So now I won't find out the Beta # until tomorrow morning.

The day did get mildly better after 10:30am, but could it really get any worse? Really?

Oh! When I got home this afternoon and got the mail, there was a nice bill from the lab for the assisted hatching. Niiiice.