Monday, December 15, 2008

Bittersweet

I can't believe how time is flying this month. September, October and November were a blur of awfulness. December has been surprisingly uneventful (so far!).

Saturday night was my Resolve group's annual Christmas dinner. It was great to see everyone and catch up, but kind of weird nonetheless. I know that each and every one of them would give just about anything to be in my shoes. Dealing with IF just plan sucks, especially around holidays because a LOT of holiday things are kid-centric.

I don't know if I'm 'there' yet, thinking this time next year we'll have a little one to celebrate with-- that I could buy all that light blue 'baby's first Christmas' stuff. It's still a hard thing to wrap my head around. I have no reason thus far to think that's not going to happen... but I am probably not going to calm down until at least 24 weeks (where the rate of survival in the NICU is 50%) gestation, or the kid is actually in my arms.

On the positive thinking front, I think I've decided on nursery bedding. And next week when we're in Florida we're going to a store that carries the stroller I want. D insists on seeing it in person and seeing fabric swatches to pick which color we get. It's kind of a haul (2 hour drive each way), but there's nowhere in Ohio that sells 'em. It's kind of interesting how limited selections are here. If it's not at *that store* (BRU), then you're pretty much out of luck.

My next appt is next Monday. *sigh*

5 comments:

Polly Gamwich said...

Will they be looking for gender on next week's scan?

It IS hard to believe you're already 15w ... where HAS time gone?

Anniep said...

I have no idea... because we did the CGH testing, we already know it's a boy. I think I'd die having to wait like normal preggos to find out the gender.

MamaSoon said...

That makes sense to me. I think I'd be getting ready to celebrate but you'll have years to celebrate the family you are next year. I hope to see some scan pics soon.

SOunds like a really cool stroller!

Cindy said...

Have I mentioned lately how happy I am for you? :)

Lost in Space said...

I'm happy to see you looking forward with the stroller, etc. One step at a time and you will be holding a baby in your arms!!