Monday, June 18, 2007

onemoredrug

Tomorrow I get to start the prometrium. It's another step towards IVF, and helps to underscore the good times here at hormones-R-us. :-)
AF should arrive 10ish days later, then I start the shots. I am NOT looking forward to the shots again, especially the PIO shots with their MoFo huge needles.
I'm a little more jaded this time around since I know what to expect. I know what's coming (another BFN) yet feel compelled to go through the process nonetheless.
Every now and then I have twinges of hope. I was at H*me Dep*t this afternoon and thought maybe a nice beige would look good for a nursery. Hell-o? Nursery?!?! That would mean a child would be entering the house! Now, I didn't actually buy the said paint, but I thought about it. For a nanosecond.

Hope is fleeting, but it's still there.

I'd rather be pleasantly surprised than crushed to smithereens (yet again)...

1 comment:

Cindy said...

Is it just me or was there a major redecorating on this blog?!

Wait... so let me get this straight... you were daydreaming about paining the nursery BEIGE?! You really need to work on your fantasies, girlie. That seems like daydreaming about a romantic night with Mister Rogers. :-P