Sunday, July 29, 2007

nothing

It's still early. Today is still only 11dpo. Which might explain why the peesticks only have one line on them.

Or it could be negative.

But just for the sake of conversation, let's say it's just simply too early. Right. Exactly. That's it. Mmm hmmm.
So tomorrow is 12dpo, it could be + then. With my past two pregnancies I didn't get a BFP until 13dpo. But I've also heard that you get earlier BFPs with multiples. And there are 3 little ones in there, right? Right! Exactly! I'm a bit conflicted on how I feel about testing early. The snow white - is crushing, so why test? Because it COULD BE POSITIVE. That's why. It could be.
There's that damn hope again.

I don't think I'll test tomorrow.

In other news, my progesterone (pregnancy supporting hormone) level came back very low. They like to see it above 15 on an ovulatory cycle, over 20 on an IVF cycle. Mine was 14. So now my PIO shot dosage is doubled to 1cc each night. Fun.

I'm nervous about the beta on Wednesday. I'm afraid it's Game Over. I think a - beta right off the bat is better than a + beta that doubles, lingers, then drops... or even worse, seeing a heartbeat, then nothing. They're all degrees of awfulness. I am very much aware that a + beta doesn't mean I'm out of the woods yet. This entire process is one long step after another (with shots inbetween each step, for good measure, of course), and at any point you could be told it's over.

I've heard that some people go to the hospital and come home with a baby 8 months after doing this. I just have a hard time believing that that could be us.

3 comments:

Chriswith#4 said...

Stay + Annie my dear! You are so strong going through all of this. I am keeping everything crossed for you!
Christina

Cindy said...

I'm sorry you're feeling down. Hang in there. I swear it does work sometimes. And it *is* too early.

Diana said...

I hope this is it!!!!