Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Bed rest fun

Well, not really... I'm bored. Despite all of the things I brought to 'do', nothing is actually either a )fun or b) distracting when I have to be horizontal in bed all day. After some good obsessing with my friend Cynthia, I think I'm kind of zen about all of this at this point. It is what it is, and I'm not going to know jack until at least Friday (the earliest I've calculated that I can POAS).

A while ago I had talked about wanting to only transfer one of the embryos. After some discussion, and finding out their 'grades', we agreed to transfer both. D thinks it gives us the best chance of pregnancy. I think it gives us the best chances of closure. This whole CCRM experience has been in the search for answers and closure. I had gotten my closure in January when we got most of our test results. D really wanted to cycle again (easy to say when you're not the one doing the shots and hormones!) to give it one last shot. So, to make the best of that last shot, we did the CGH genetic testing on the embryos (only 3 made it to blast). Of those three, only two were normal. We had talked about only transferring one because Dr Surrey had quoted a crazy high success rate of CGH normal blasts. Then we'd have one for a sibling. But yet there's no guarantee that anything worked. That'd mean I would have to do another FET cycle, with another trip out to Colorado. I was ready to be DONE.

Adoption has always been on the table as an option, but D wanted to exhaust our biological options first. Doing two FETs just draws out the process, and at the end of the day I just want to be a MOM. Whether or not this FET works, we're at least headed in direction that will result in us being more than 'just a couple'.

I'm still nervous. Waiting sucks... esp horizontal in bed...

8 comments:

Martha said...

Take good care and wishing you the best. Visiting from ILCW. Waiting does totally suck, hope it flies bye!

Christi said...

when are you heading home?? what crazy rate did surrey give you?

Cindy said...

Sorry your best rest was no fun. Looking forward to you getting back here to Ohio.

Cece said...

Good luck! Hope this is your cycle...

g said...

I hear ya!! we are pretty much in ths same situtation! i was done back in Jan when we started the adoption process and i had moved on.. But DH wanted to give it one last shot with CCRM after we had talked to them... granted i was curious to i wasnt looking forward to the shots and hormones and more weight gain! BUT i know that whatever the results are it will give us closure and since we have been on the adoption waiting list for about 7months now i know that even if this fails we will soon become parents regardless of how our child comes to us! that in itself brings a form of closure!

wishing you all the best and i am hopeing for good news for you all!! :) ((((HUGS)))

hope the rest of your bedrest goes good!! i know i get stir crazy myself! will need to stock up on some movies! ;)

Christi said...

wow 85%! When I asked Schoolcraft, he told me 60% but he was giving me a rate specific to me. I wonder why so different...

Rebecca said...

Bedrest is horrible. I did it for my first two IVF cycles but not the third (which is the one that worked) and my most recent (which also seems to have worked).

Good luck with everything! I really truly hope at least one of the embies sticks.

ICLW

seriously? said...

Wishing you all the best with this cycle.

ICLW.